"Let Go" by Frou Frou

How long ago was it since I broke up with Jacob for the first time? The answer is: over half a year. Yes. Over half a year and I have been wallowing in it for six long wasted months when I could have been spending my emotions for a better cause. You may wonder why I am stating this fact after my consistent waffling back and forth. However, do know that I have reached a new plateau - one that I could not have reached on my own but that it is about time I have reached.

Jacob is an ass. Many of you have probably inferred that from my repeated blogs and my toxic indecision. I suspect his has Narcissistic Personality Disorder because he exhibits all the signs but because he has not been diagnosed, I am hesitant to say for sure. I broke up with him six months ago because of his inability to relate and care. Looking back after the fact, I was able to convince myself that I was at fault and that Jacob had offered enough affection. However, fooled by the discrepancy between his current coldness and the slightly better past, I was blind. After repeated refusals to open up and the slights that came hand in hand with such ordeals, I finally caved in. My friends were there to cushion my fall and I was able, after so much turmoil, to finally move on.

It does not matter the truth surrounding Jacob's current situation. He could be still in love with me. He could be "turned off" by my unparalleled excellence. He could have gotten tired of my constant urging of him to open up. Whatever the case, I am done finding people who need fixing. When guys come to me, they must be already in shape, as much so as they're going to get. Further "changing" is out of the question. I've finally realized that even if I were capable of changing a guy, it would not be my job.

After so much inner hardship that had begun whether I'd admit it or not to eat away at my insides, I can finally say that I've done the most natural and respectable thing - the only thing I hadn't tried. I listened to my six-month-ago self. I "let go."

Lyrics to "Let Go":

Drink up baby doll
Are you in or are you out?
Leave your things behind
'Cause it's all going off without you
Excuse me too busy you're writing your tragedy
These mishaps
You bubble-wrap
When you've no idea what you're like

[Chorus:]
So, let go, let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go, let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

It gains the more it gives
And then it rises with the fall
So hand me that remote
Can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow?
Such boundless pleasure
We've no time for later
Now you can't await
your own arrival
you've twenty seconds to comply

[Chorus:]
So, let go, so let go
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's alright
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go, yeah let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown

[Background sounds]

[Chorus:]
So, let go,
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It's alright
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
So, let go, yeah let go
Just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's all right
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown

In the breakdown
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown
The breakdown

So amazing here
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown

Link to Music Video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xgcIpKL86Jk