"God is a DJ" by Pink

So if someone were to approach me and tell me that God is a DJ, I'm not sure how I'd react. I am not conventionally religious and I prefer to follow a belief system that I call "Instinct Destiny". Basically, in my opinion, there are forces in the world that attempt to place a person where they are meant to be. However, these forces cannot be implemented without a person's being aware of the their impact and acting accordingly. The forces strive to reach people through their instincts, otherwise known as the gut feelings we sometimes get when making decisions. Several people deny these instincts and therefore are planted farther from their supposed fate. Getting closer to our fates involves paying close attention to our instincts and acting in harmony with them even when our desires conflict.

The presence of an omniscient God does not match this belief system. So you might be wondering why I've related to a song that features God as a major character. I guess to me, the presence of God is irrelevant to the underlying message of the song. The general aura of this song paraphrases the realization I came to today about how I want to lead my life this year.

In yesterday's blog, I introduced my lasting feelings for a mysterious man who for the purposes of this blog I will call Edward. However, though Edward may and hopefully will play a significant part in my future, it's most likely he won't return to my scene for at least a year. Therefore, I have two options for senior year: I can either a) refuel my relationship with my arrogant yet temptingly attractive ex-boyfriend Jacob or b) open up to the many people around me and learn as much as I can before heading off to college. Though getting back together with Jacob is undeniably tempting because of the physical connection I've established with him, I have decided that this option would probably be detrimental to my health and growth as a person. Opening up to the many people that come into my life as Jacob did last year and Edward did before him will only give me more opportunities to learn and let destiny play a leading part in this year of unknowns.

I do not believe in the concept of God. But I am prepared to let destiny be my DJ for this year and choose widespread knowledge over definitive attachment. Instead of pushing my limits in terms of commitment, I plan to explore life as a "dance floor" and have a bit more relaxed fun. This has never been my approach in the past but seeing how my previous philosophy of commitment has not been particularly successful, I want to temporarily give it up, especially when I have no intention of putting Edward on an invisible backburner once again.

I guess today's entry is pretty simple and doesn't require a lot of explanation. But it will have its echoes. You'll see. =)

Lyrics to "God is a DJ"

I've been the girl with her skirt pulled high
Been the outcast never running with mascara eyes
Now I see the world as a candy store
With a cigarette smile, saying things you can't ignore
Like Mommy I love you
Daddy I hate you
Brother I need you
Lover, hey "fuck you"
I can see everything here with my third eye
Like the blue in the sky

[CHORUS:]
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
Love is the rhythm
You are the music
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
You get what you're given
It's all how you use it

[Verse 2:]
I've been the girl- middle finger in the air
Unaffected by rumors, the truth: I don't care
So open your mouth and stick out your tongue
You might as well let go, you can't take back what you've done
So find a new lifestyle
A new reason to smile
Look for Nirvana
Under the strobe lights
Sequins and sex dreams
You whisper to me
There's no reason to cry

[CHORUS:]
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
Love is the rhythm
You are the music
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
You get what you're given
It's all how you use it

[BRIDGE:]
You take what you get and you get what you give
I say don't run from yourself, man, that's no way to live
I've got a record in my bag you should give it a spin
Lift your hands in the air so that life can begin

If God Is a DJ... If God
If God is a DJ (life is a dance floor)
Get your ass on the dance floor

[CHORUS (2X):]
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
Love is the rhythm
You are the music
If God is a DJ
Life is a dance floor
You get what you're given
It's all how you use it

Link to music video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FwRwA5gFvGU