Basically, today, while at music school registration, I lost of the purple dragon earrings I'd had ever since the summer of 2005. I'd bought them at the store in Keene, NH while at Walden. I'd lost countless pairs of earrings but never those ones...at least not permanently. In fact, this summer, I'd dropped one of the earrings on the beach and a random friend leaving minutes after me in a different group happened to come across the earring, recognize it, and return it to me. They were my magic earrings - the sole pair that I'd had for 4 years escaped my unchanging carelessness. And - today - on this fateful first day back at my epic "home-base", I lost one. Now I couldn't quite fathom how that had happened. How could I have lost my lucky, epic pair of earrings? I'd switched necklaces three major times, in need of a new constant charm to represent me and give me strength. But these earrings had been there throughout all of those times. And now they weren't.
So I was sitting at my cello, feeling depressed. I'd dreamed about interviewing at my dream college wearing these. I planned on taking the ACT and heading to re-meet Jacob and Stewart with them. I wore them for the entirety of my week in Lake Placid! However, while talking out-loud to my mirror about my plans for confronting Jacob, I was smacked in the face with an idea. I went to the empty tea container where I'd stowed my pair-less earring and ripped off the hook and the purple jewel attached. I took the necklace I'd been wearing, removed the charm and replaced it with the hook-less dragon, slipping the wide chain through a break in the design.
This blog is quite different from the rest I've written. I guess my point is to mark the transformation of the dragon earrings as constant but removable pieces of jewelry to a permanent fixture in my life. I like this change. It makes me feel stronger and ready to tackle what comes my way this year. I am ready to "come clean" of my past and charge ahead with force.
Lyrics to "Come Clean":
Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned
'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
was my life
I defy
[Chorus:]
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean
I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin
'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind
[Chorus]
I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming...
[Chorus x2]
Let's go back
Back to the beginning
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