If you are wondering, noticing my trend to adopt certain cultural elements based on a newfound interest in a guy, Stewart is completely white, british, and probably not a big hip hop listener. My appreciation for this genre stems from my philosophy on music: the best music is that which expresses emotion - clear emotion that either seeps into you and takes over or slaps you right in the face.
I guess I'm going through a bit of a hard time right now. I've clearly fallen for Stewart, as you well know, and I'm into him for what I believe to be the right reasons. I'm feeling the buzz of a potential relationship and the fear involved with this limbo period in between the initial attraction and the continuation of such a connection. However, there is something holding me back - the one reason that makes me glad that Stewart is not acknowledging my presence (albeit online or by text): that would be my lingering feelings for Jacob.
I wish I could be immune in a way to both these people's effects on me. I wish I could resist from wondering constantly why Stewart would express excitement over seeing me in two weeks and then stay out of the loop. I wish I could forget entirely about Jacob's all too toxic presence, never again experiencing seething anger after stalking his wall-to-wall convo with another girl or having "day-mares" about seeing him in the music school hallway.
I guess that's what attracts me to this type of music. It's full of emotion. It's honest and human. However, beneath the emotion, I sense the immense self-control these people have gained through being forced to overcome long-term adversity. Those from this culture have been brought up as survivors and their music reflects it. The reason I chose this particular hit song to be the inspiration for this blog is because of Rihanna's chorus. She recognizes that "life's a game but it's not fair." But she also expresses her ability to surive such adversity because she doesn't play by the "rules".
I feel that by listening to this music and adopting it as part of my own crafted culture, I too can gain the guarded yet human quality it emits. I will be able to feel the intense passion I have always felt for various people or elements in life. However, I might also become immune to the things I cannot change and walk forward strongly and confidently.
Lyrics to "Run This Town":
Feel it comin' in the air
Hear the screams from everywhere
I'm addicted to the thrill
It's a dangerous love affair
Can't be scared when it goes down
Got a problem, tell me now
Only thing that's on my mind
Is who's gonna run this town tonight...
Is who's gonna run this town tonight...
We gonna run this town
[Verse 1 - Jay-Z]
We are
Yeah I said it
We are
This is Roc Nation
Pledge your allegiance
Get y'all fatigues on
All black everything
Black cards, black cars
All black everything
And our girls are blackbirds
Ridin' with they dillingers
I'd get more in Depth
If you boys really real enough
This is la familia
I'll explain later
But for now let me get back to this paper
I'm a couple bands down and I'm tryin' to get back
I gave the other grip, I lost a flip for five stacks
Yeah I'm talkin' five comma
Six zeros
Dot zero
Here it go...
Back to runnin' circles 'round niggas
Now we squared up
Hold up
[Chorus - Rihanna]
Life's a game but it's not fair
I break the rules so I don't care
So I keep doin' my own thing
Walkin' tall against the rain
Victory's within the mile
Almost there, don't give up now
Only thing that's on my mind
Is who's gonna run this town tonight
Heeeey-hey-hey-hey-hey-heyyy
Hey-heyyy-hey-hey-heyy
Heeeey-hey-hey-hey-hey-heyyy
(Is who's gonna run this town tonight)
Hey-hey-hey-heyyy
[Verse 2 - Jay-Z]
We are
Yeah I said it
We are
You can call me Cesar
In a dark Czar
Please follow the lea-der
So Eric B. we are
Microphone fiend
It's the return of thee God
Peace God...
(Auh! Auh! )
And ain't nobody fresher
I'm in Mason
(Ah! )
Martin Margiela
On the tape we're screamin'
Fuck the other side, they jealous
We got a bankhead full of broads(?)
They got a table full of fellas... (?)
And they ain't spending no cake
They should throw they hand in
'Cause they ain't got no spades...
My whole team got dough
So my bankhead is lookin' like millionaire's 'fro
[Chorus - Rihanna]
Life's a game but it's not fair
I break the rules so I don't care
So I keep doin' my own thing
Walkin' tall against the rain
Victory's within the mile
Almost there, don't give up now
Only thing that's on my mind
Is who's gonna run this town tonight
Heeeey-hey-hey-hey-hey-heyyy
Hey-heyyy-hey-hey-heyy
Heeeey-hey-hey-hey-hey-heyyy
(Is who's gonna run this town tonight)
Hey-hey-hey-heyyy
[Verse 3 - Kanye West]
It's crazy how you can go from being Joe Blow
To everybody on your dick, no homo
I bought my whole family whips, no Volvos
Next time I'm in church, please no photos
Police escorts
Everybody passports
This the life that everybody ask for
This a fast life
We are on a crash course
What you think I rap for
To push a fucking RAV4?
But I know that if I stay stun-ting
All these girls only gonna want one thing
I could spend my whole life good will hun-ting
Only good gon' come is as good when I'm cumm-ing
She got a ass that'll swallow up a g-string
And up top, unh...
Two bee stings
And I'm beasting
Off the riesling
And my nigga just made it out the precinct
We give a damn about the drama that your dude bring
I'm just tryin' to change the color on your mood ring
Reebok
Baby
You need to drop some new things
Have you ever had shoes without shoe strings?
What's that 'Ye?
Baby, these heels
Is that a may?
What!
Baby, these wheels
You trippin' when you ain't sippin'
Have a refill
You feelin' like you runnin', huh?
Now you know how we feel
[Outro - Rihanna]
We gonna run this town tonight
Link to Music Video:
(Watch this...It's amazing)
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