This song is the song that I imagine my dream guy singing to me - well, not actually singing - but I imagine him thinking the words in his head. Now, some of you may know that due to recent circumstances, my dream guy may not in fact be confined to my dreams. I did meet a guy who is pretty much like Edward, who you know has represented such a dream in the past, except not culture-bound. And because of the current situation, involving our busy lives and the fact that we hardly know each other, we are in fact "hanging by a moment" in the past, that hopefully in time will grow.
So...what quantifies a dream guy you ask? Well of course he must be dashing in my eyes - that doesn't mean he needs to be conventionally dashing as Stewart is not (Chuck makes this point clear all too well). It just means that his physical appearance passes my standards. Because I do not have a physical "type", this requirement is pretty broad. He must have a certain air about him - a "I want to change the world and am going to do it" air. He must be intellectual - both practically smart and book-smart enough to be able to apply such practicality.
But mainly, he must be a solidly good person who has the heart and the security to care about me, not as an extension of himself, but as a separate and just-as-worthy human being. He must be interested in me, but not so much that he would shirk work and responsibility to go after me. He must respect me, but also respect himself. I guess these are qualities that every girl wants in a guy but a lot of girls tend to settle and convince themselves that the individual guy of the moment is worth the loss of such expectations. However, I am determined never to do this. You have seen the way I have cut off ties with someone I love because these expectations of mine were not being fulfilled. I can do it. I am strong, though my emotions, according to our favorite Jacob, suggest otherwise.
I guess right now, as I told my friend Drake yesterday, I'm not looking for a guy. I'm looking to succeed. My longings for Prince Charming must at least for the next month lie on the back-burner. If Stewart is in fact this guy, then by the end of this stretch, our connection will still remain. For now, we are "hanging by a moment", waiting for a gust of wind to push us over this spark-filled hump.
I'm not as talented with vivid hypothetical imagery as is Chuck, but it was worth a shot to get my point across. When I've finished the massive amount of work in store for me today, I will be back to continue.
Lyrics to "Hanging By A Moment":
Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now...
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you
There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you....
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you
Just hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment here with you
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